Song Dissections are all about striving to understand why songs make us feel the way they do. Today, we’re looking at Silent Sanctuary’s “Pasensya Ka Na.”
Originally formed back in 2001, Silent Sanctuary soon became well-known as one of the few rock bands incorporating strings into their active roster. Starting with a regular three piece band—vocals and guitar, bass, and drums—the band eventually desired to set themselves apart from the rest of the music scene, and decided to add a cellist and violinist into their lineup, and has since become one of the most popular local bands to do so.
In fact, their second album Fuchsiang Pag-Ibig—which many consider as their best and most iconic—was filled with nostalgia-inducing string sections, coupled with Sarkie’s mellow, almost-sad vocals. However, that isn’t to say that the band hasn’t made any iconic songs in recent years. Their 2015 hit, “Pasensya Ka Na,” is just as nostalgic, sad, and iconic as their older songs.
As compared to many sad songs that deal with heartbreak and rejection, it doesn’t wallow in self-pity. Instead, it humbles itself and apologizes, saying sorry for not being good enough, and apologizing for now wanting to be alone: “Pasensya ka na at 'di ko na rin madama, Kay tagal kitang hinihintay, Pasensya ka na at kaya ko ng mag-isa, Kalayaan sa kamay ng lumbay.”
Of course, after this heart-rending confession, both parties may still want to salvage a relationship. However, oftentimes, this doesn’t work: “Hindi mo na mapipilit, wala ng babalikan, Sa liwanag mong nang-aakit, ayoko ng masaktan, Nakikiusap sayo, patawarin mo na lang ako, Patawarin.”
Once a decision is reached, it’s almost impossible to come back from it, and would take an extraordinary amount of effort just for the two to ever be okay again: “Ikaw na rin ang nag-sabi, tapos na ang lahat, Uunahin na ang sarili, makuha lang ang sapat, ’Wag ka sanang magtampo, mas mabuti na ako'y lumayo, Lumayo.”
Sometimes, the persons we truly are can’t be enough for those that we love, and sometimes, it’s better to go our separate ways, lest we lose ourselves in trying to meet their unrealistic expectations. Watch the official music video of “Pasensya Ka Na” below:
You can listen to the rest of the band’s music on their Spotify page below:
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